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27 December 2010 @ 08:24 pm
the story that launched a 1000 kinks  
I wish I'd had the foresight years ago to save copies of all my favorite online stories and create a vast index so that I could easily find something whenever I wanted to. And if I'd been exceptionally precognitive, I'd have printed hard copies of everything by Karen McFadyyon and Em Brunson and bought a fire-proof safe to store them in.

But the upside to having poor organizational skills and a spotty memory is rediscovering stuff. Like shaking out an old coat and having a $100 bill flutter out of the pocket. Or a bundle of 100s rolled up with a rubber band...falling meatily from the pocket...rolling into my fingers...sighhh. I somehow skidded sideways while re-reading a bunch of Due South today and landed on Wesley Rogue Demon, which out of hundreds, even thousands of stories, across multiple fandoms, has to be in my all-time top ten. I have huge slave kinks (possibly on some kind of primal, freakishly empathetic level), am a massive romantic sap, and weep for brilliant, pitch-perfect writing. This story is greatness, and the writing is *restrained*--and being able to use that word about a slave-themed story, about *Wesley*, makes it especially perfect.

Also, re-reading it today with four years' (actually FIVE) distance from writing SGA, I realize that this badfic snippet, making Rodney an alien, was essentially a cryptic scribbled post-it note to myself. I think I wanted to write something as awesomely inspired as Wesley Rogue Demon, along different lines, but keeping a key kink. Not the slavery, but the massive "secret otherness" that when revealed is accepted. Love is not love / Which alters when it alteration finds... Etc.

Meanwhile, I am *so* not used to this whole "capturing thoughts in complete sentences" thing. My head actually hurts. Plus after years stranded on a rock in outer space it's very tempting to second-guess everything I say and how I say it. But I've done that to death in the past, so I'm just going to roll my shoulders, crack my neck, inhale, breathe, repeat. Bloom, close, kick...

Meanwhile 2, I'm looking for the DS story where Fraser runs away with Victoria--maybe to Vegas?--and ends up as a back-alley hustler, neatly laying out his handkerchief on the pavement before getting on his knees to give blow-jobs. Found by aerye: Follow Without Pride.

(Does anyone know of a good cross-fandom storyfinders list?)

P.S. I'm behind on answering comments. Ah, to be able to write those words again. Good times, good times.

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Anna S.: hedgehogeliade on December 28th, 2010 04:40 am (UTC)
Thank you! :D
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(no subject) - eliade on December 28th, 2010 04:50 am (UTC) (Expand)
Sizequeensizequeen on December 28th, 2010 04:49 am (UTC)
Dude, welcome back! If you want Karen McFaddyon's fics, e-mail me at mamalabas at yahoo.com. I have them all in a zip file.
Anna S.: dh-peaceeliade on December 28th, 2010 04:52 am (UTC)
You are lovely, thank you! I will definitely e-mail you--if I don't get to gmail tonight, it'll be tomorrow. :D
Kath: Wes_sex godnakedwesley on December 28th, 2010 06:23 am (UTC)
Ah, I remember when Wesley Rogue Demon was being posted, and I went nuts waiting for each new installment. That and the Small Fry series will always have a special place in my heart. ::hearts:: Good times!
Anna S.: flowereliade on December 29th, 2010 03:07 am (UTC)
The big reveal of what he is--that whole scene where the AI gang just instinctively closes ranks to protect him--still just punches me in the gut and takes my breath away. *glow*
kate: z.p.m.aretria on December 28th, 2010 06:52 am (UTC)
I so remember your alien!Rodney story! :) As for Karen McFadyyon, many of her stories were uploaded to Wraithbait some time ago. http://wraithbait.com/viewuser.php?uid=3125
Anna S.: hedgehogeliade on December 29th, 2010 03:08 am (UTC)
Oh thank you! I'll check out the link! :D
Debris K.: DrHorrible Yay Fanfic by mycoolnewnamedebris_k on December 28th, 2010 08:46 am (UTC)
A good cross-fandom fic and rec finding comm is the_rec_room. At least I prefer it to others. ;-)

Edited at 2010-12-28 08:46 am (UTC)
Anna S.: cupcakeseliade on December 29th, 2010 03:10 am (UTC)
Sweet! Thank you--I'll check it out. I'm having this itch to ask for recs and story-finding help all over the fannish map and if I post every stray whine here in my own LJ I'd probably be spamming the flist every day. ;)
Trepkos: Arthur and Kai smiletrepkos on December 28th, 2010 09:37 am (UTC)
Have you heard about this fan-run multi-fandom archive?
They have their own legal team and their own servers.
You may find stories you want there, depending on whether the author has joined yet.

Anna S.: dino-rodney-pianoeliade on December 29th, 2010 03:11 am (UTC)
I have starting seeing it pop-up in story recs--I didn't realize the founding principle behind it, though. That's awesome. :D
The Spikespike21 on December 28th, 2010 11:56 am (UTC)
I've never read the Rogue Demon fic. *bookmarks*

Also *snugs* Good to see you.
Anna S.: dino-rodneyeliade on December 29th, 2010 03:13 am (UTC)
*HUGS* It's so very good to see you too--and your puppy icon adds to the joyous feel. MANOS! *glee*
WesleysGirlwesleysgirl on December 28th, 2010 01:01 pm (UTC)
I have no real comment, I just want to say how glad I am to see you posting. *Hugs*
Anna S.: dh-peaceeliade on December 29th, 2010 03:14 am (UTC)
*HUGS* back! It's so awesome and amazing to come back after five freaking years and see familiar names and Wes in a Santa hat. *gloms again*
Kestkestrelsan on December 28th, 2010 02:03 pm (UTC)
I feel like you need to check out this (index a couple entries down--still a WIP, but an active one). Original slavefic and so yummy :D.
MELODY GLOUCESTER PEGASUSjolielaide on December 28th, 2010 08:52 pm (UTC)
YES, seconded!
(no subject) - eliade on December 29th, 2010 03:17 am (UTC) (Expand)
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torchflambeau on December 28th, 2010 02:21 pm (UTC)
omg, it's you! I stumble back from a week away and turn on my computer and... are you real? *pokes* It's good to see you. :)
Anna S.: beautiful rodneyeliade on December 28th, 2010 07:35 pm (UTC)
omg BACK! *glom* I was thinking about you last night in the wee hours, wondering how you are, what's going on with you. *HUG* I was marinating in squishy nostalgiac affectionate yearning (or S.N.A.Y., for short) and was going to pull up your LJ, but while I'd been reminiscing and wandering back and forth between a half dozen open story screens, something in the wifi service fritzed out. Since it was 3:00 a.m.ish I figured it was a sign that I should try to sleep--and here you are in the morning! Or what passes for morning with me right now.

Still not awake yet but SNAY!

Plus, Sherlock = Sociopath Kryceck memories = thinking of you. :)
Dorothea: merlin - dragon spellfrogspace on December 28th, 2010 02:53 pm (UTC)
a key kink. Not the slavery, but the massive "secret otherness" that when revealed is accepted.

Have you tried Merlin fandom? The fic is all about Arthur finding out that Merlin (Arthur's manservant) is secretly a sorcerer, dragon lord, magical and protecting Arthur all the time (and is also, possibly, madly in love with him). *g*

I second the Captive Prince (original slash slavefic) rec. :)
I Blame the Dutch: Merlin - m/a: boys onna stepsmpoetess on December 28th, 2010 03:36 pm (UTC)
And I second Merlin hard. Granted the canon (and some of the fandom) will begin to fill you with Ragey McRage as things progress, but there's no better sign that you're getting back into fandom than wanting to stick a boot up the arse of the showrunners...
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I Blame the Dutch: angel fandommpoetess on December 28th, 2010 03:40 pm (UTC)

FWIW, the kink credit goes to James. I may or may not have been the restraint. *grin*

Anna S.: brainslugeliade on December 29th, 2010 03:20 am (UTC)
You two make a brilliant binary equation. (And though that's probably not a clever compliment, let's pretend it is. *g*)
*matando tiempo sin piedad desde 2002*: SGA-Rodney logovo1 on December 28th, 2010 06:16 pm (UTC)
I can't describe well why that SGA snippet has stuck with me for a long time, but yeah, Love is not love / Which alters when it alteration finds....
Anna S.: dh-peaceeliade on December 29th, 2010 03:23 am (UTC)
Yay--I am happy! :) I have a strong sense of attachment to the story idea even though I'll never properly make a go of writing it at length or to my satisfaction. I have a lot of wingfic!Rodney in my head--another patch of it just sprouted up again recently. It flies me to a happy place.
all right, so you're nonchalant: genius at workrunpunkrun on December 29th, 2010 04:21 am (UTC)
...a key kink. Not the slavery, but the massive "secret otherness" that when revealed is accepted. Love is not love / Which alters when it alteration finds... Etc.

Hearing you describe the alien!Rodney story this way makes it even sweeter. I always loved it, but now I know why I love it.
Anna S.: john-and-rodney-skyeliade on December 29th, 2010 05:12 am (UTC)
*happy hand-clapping hop*

I just replied similarly to a comment on WRD about how much I love getting that button pushed:
The big reveal of what he is--that whole scene where the AI gang just instinctively closes ranks to protect him--still just punches me in the gut and takes my breath away. *glow*

And you just sparked a connection in my mind--if SGA fans were asked for their top-10 story tropes in McKay/Sheppard slash--I bet everyone would list something along the lines of "Acceptance of Secrets, Eccentricities, and Imperfections." Pick a story at random--it often seems to be the crux.

  • Rodney: What would John think of me if he guessed my manly love? Each fleeting glance I give him means more than--crap! he's looking this way! act casual! ... *whistles nervously, staring deeply into datapad*

  • John: I secretly hoard my Rodney-crush but openly itemize his unique, endearing charms--quirky nose, chinny chin, fit-but-soft belly, big hands, *mmmsigh*, not to mention his arrogance, abrasive personality, personal grooming issues, table manners, skill at making minions weep... *lovegush*

  • Rodney: Could John ever learn to love my pre-coffee morning rages? Or come to embrace my ruthless need to control the Atlantis grey markets? I seized vicious control of the powerbar trade and chocolate rationing system with an iron fist for *my own* purposes, it is true, but I extorted those DVDs from Zelenka for *him*.

  • John: For the past three damn *years* I've flirted like gangbusters and listened to him describe the awesome glory of Sam Carter's breasts. I exercised infinite patience and now--*now*--he tells me he's a Kinsey *5*?! Not sure I can forgive him for toying with me, not for at least another 500-750 words. Bastard...oh look, he has banana pudding on his nose. *lovesigh*.... Anyway, I still need to confess that I'm a black-ops sociopath and how I really, really like to be tied down and whipped, so...what to do, what to do....

Edited at 2010-12-29 05:17 am (UTC)
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(Anonymous) on January 2nd, 2011 10:11 pm (UTC)

It's very nice to see you posting again. I adore your fanfiction and we often re-read. We have all our faves printed out. Regards, Ditto x