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14 February 2006 @ 04:23 pm
I'm a petal on the wind.  
Thank you for the roses, anonymice. I put them in a vase. Except that I first wrote "face." But really. I did. Because I am a dork.

I have no comments in the Valentine's Day Game, and am strangely glad, because even knowing how happy anonymous love memes make people*, they usually make me angst about everyone else. Omissions. So I get to sit this one out on the wallflowery side of the room with other freaks and geeks, eating cookies, watching cool kids dance, and wondering why I wore this dress. (ETA: I can sit here even if I'm holding roses, right? I mean, the corsage is from my mom.)

(*Also, I think svmadelyn is sweet and highly cool in the *good* way, as are so many other people I know who did get comments, which I don't begrudge, and the ones who left comments too. I say all this without passive agression! I am full of love! It will only last for about five minutes and then I'll roll over and go to sleep, but still, for now...love!)

Slightly perky today, but ohmygod so unfocused and so bored and, possibly, so very going home this minute. *looks shiftily around office and wonders whether anyone would notice*

ETA: Also, can I mention that I realize that not getting comments doesn't reflect how people might feel about me? And ditto for everyone else. And OMG I cannot post anything without qualifying it six different ways!!!! *explodes from neurosis*
 
 
Current Mood: Rodney w/a marshmallow filling
 
 
 
Poshykittyposhcat on February 15th, 2006 12:42 am (UTC)
Hee! ::loves:: It's the expectations that kill us. I thought I'd have a love-fest on my VD post, and nobody wanted to do it, therefore OMG NOBODY LOVES ME. And I told Mr. Posh not to get me anything because it annoys me how this is a fake holiday so card companies can get rich. So he didn't. And then I felt bad BECAUSE HE OBVIOUSLY DOESN'T LOVE ME. He was all, "please stop sending me mixed messages now. Kthxbye."

I'm just trying to cling to the thought that today will soon be over, and then my sanity might return. No promises, of course.

You don't have to reply to this, because YOUR LOVE IS OBVIOUS. :0P
A carbonated fusion beverage!: milky mamboswmbo on February 15th, 2006 01:14 am (UTC)
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!
Poshykittyposhcat on February 15th, 2006 02:27 am (UTC)
::blushes::

Squeak!
Anna S.eliade on February 15th, 2006 05:00 am (UTC)
But if I did not reply to this, would my love still be obvious?! These questions plague me late at nice, like little mice running across my face. *nibbles you*
Poshykittyposhcat on February 15th, 2006 06:06 am (UTC)
You're such a sweetheart, it would have been obvious even if you'd never talked to me again. Erm...I think. :0) No need to lose sleep. xoxo

PS Speaking of sleep, I love it when you post about your dreams. You have the most detailed and fantastical dreams! When you describe them, it's like I'm right there in bed with you.

Anna S.: cat-blueeliade on February 15th, 2006 06:10 am (UTC)
I just noticed that I said "late at nice" instead of "late at night". Perhaps because it rhymes with "mice". *facepalm* Some days I worry that...well, eh. The brain is always decaying at some rate or another.

Dreams! I need to have more of them for you.
Poshykittyposhcat on February 15th, 2006 06:42 am (UTC)
Heh. I read that late at nice sentence and thought, "she typed that because nice rhymes with mice."

My latest very intense dream: King Kong was ravaging the city and I tried to hide from him in wrecked office buildings but he kept finding me and I had to run away fast!!! In conclusion...yes, yes you do have to have more dreams. :0P
"She Who Procrastinates": David H - greenlogovo on February 15th, 2006 12:43 am (UTC)
Wow, that is soooo weird, because I know how those of us who enjoy your posts feel about you. But just one of those strange things. I got comments and - I mean, seriously, I do *nothing* in fandom beyond cooing once in a while over the wonderful fic, meta and general squee.

Anyway, although I am *very* aware that you're cool about this I am here, so I want you to know that I perk up everytime I see you post, and that has been the case since you had your blog (and when I think about that blog I always thing "melting bunnies" - you had a dream once and, I dunno - huh -) so thank you for that feeling.
deaverdeaver on February 15th, 2006 12:51 am (UTC)
Also, can I mention that I realize that not getting comments doesn't reflect how people might feel about me? And ditto for everyone else. And OMG I cannot post anything without qualifying it six different ways!!!! *explodes from neurosis*

Hee. You and your neurosis are adorable.
Alizarin_NYC: facepalm bunnyalizarin_nyc on February 15th, 2006 12:59 am (UTC)
I don't know what this game is, it's obviously very complicated, but I just thought I'd drop by and give you some VD. Uh, I mean, V-Day LOVE. That's it, yeah.
A carbonated fusion beverage!: aadvarkswmbo on February 15th, 2006 01:15 am (UTC)
Heee! GO HOME GO HOME!!

I like to believe that we are so universally adored that everybody was afraid of saying anything for fear of making the WHOLE WORLD JEALOUS.

*slips you a Valentine in sekrit*
Anna S.eliade on February 15th, 2006 05:01 am (UTC)
Well, it is better to be terrified than loved! ...or, possibly I meant "feared".

*loves you too*
cindershadow on February 15th, 2006 01:19 am (UTC)
You have perfectly captured my ambivalence about these sorts of things. It's wonderful that people can hear nice things about themselves . . . but the wallflower thing is always all too possible, too.

Anyway--for what it's worth, I continue to get huge amounts of pleasure out of reading what you write--both the stories (re-read obsessively, and being enjoyed even more each time) and your LJ posts. Even when you are not finding life delightful, you manage to write about it in a way that just grabs me (in a good way, I hasten to add!).

(It's also always nice to know I'm not the only one out there who might explode from neurosis.)
tokagemusume on February 15th, 2006 02:22 am (UTC)
Just As Bad in the VL as in the RL
I've only been reading your posts for a short while but I think I have a leetle harmless crush on you. That's primarily why I don't ever comment... too afraid I'll go all squee about how cool you are and how the way your brain works makes me happy. LOL
But, since you're insisting on saying such true stuff all the time, I figured, what the hell. It couldn't be any more embarrassing in the VL than in the RL when you beam at somebody you like. So. There. You've been beamed at.
*returning to harmless lurker status*
(Anonymous) on February 15th, 2006 03:03 am (UTC)
The vase is way cute!
Destinadestina on February 15th, 2006 03:15 am (UTC)
So I get to sit this one out on the wallflowery side of the room with other freaks and geeks, eating cookies, watching cool kids dance, and wondering why I wore this dress.

Yep. I got no love, either. *steals your cookie*
Anna S.eliade on February 15th, 2006 05:05 am (UTC)
I overflow with love for you. If my love for you were a giant multibillion corporate conglomerate, it would be Microsoft, Coca-Cola, *and* Wal-Mart!
Destina: brokeback jack smilingdestina on February 15th, 2006 07:13 am (UTC)
Aww. :) Here, I brought you a new cookie, 'cause I left tooth marks on the one I stole. *g*
Very inconvenient, as now I have no shaving-glassdzurlady on February 15th, 2006 03:29 am (UTC)
I *adore* the vase. Very tasteful.
ruthless1ruthless1 on February 15th, 2006 05:46 am (UTC)
This is a driveby Happy something or other day Anna. I haven't commented in awhile cuz you have gone into the land of Rodney and out of the land of joss. And still writing in a breathtakingly gorgeous manner - I must add. I am still checking in and reading your day to day stuff and hoping you are well. And give you a little Happy QUIRKYALONE Day. It's way better day than v-day anytime. Google it - it's a picture perfect description of lots of us.
*gives you a little gentle non-threatening hug from afar*
Trepkos: Bemused by Glimmergirltrepkos on February 15th, 2006 08:03 am (UTC)
not getting comments doesn't reflect how people might feel about me?

Too true - I just couldn't work out how it worked - which just means that the people who love you are the technically challenged ones!
(Anonymous) on February 15th, 2006 08:20 am (UTC)
I have no comments in the Valentine's Day Game, and am strangely glad, because even knowing how happy anonymous love memes make people*, they usually make me angst about everyone else. Omissions.

*hugs* I know what you mean. The day before yesterday, I left about 30 virtual LJ-gifts for various friends (including you! *g*). Part of me wished I could have signed my name to them, but the rest of me was too worried about how my friends who *didn't* get a present from me would feel, so I left them all anonymously instead.

Thinking too much hurts. *smooches*
She Who, Like a Dragon, Mostly Hides in a Cave: Fruity Oaty Barsravenwings_7 on February 15th, 2006 08:09 pm (UTC)
New favorite word: "Anonymice"
And as a fellow dork, I admire your dorkiness. Really. I think dorky is going to be the new cool. Everyone will want to be a dork.
Love reading your posts, so happy belated Valentine's Day, O great comrade in wallflowery-ness!
::friends::
::tries to scurry to the punch bowl without being noticed::