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16 January 2006 @ 08:19 pm
the second wave  
Thank you for all the feedback--you guys made my Monday immeasurably happier than it would have been otherwise. REALLY REALLY REALLY. It was a wonderful break from a week of down. And surprising too. One of those times when you write something in an offhand way and then you're like, it wasn't *that* funny, was it? ...cool. The only thing better than feedback is being startled by feedback. I think that may be true anyway. It's ten to eight and I'm already drowning in my own mental fog. In fact, I'm going to bed as soon as I finish writing this.

Saw my therapist today. Barely managed to drag myself there, but it was good that I did. She agrees with my feeling that I should see Psych Guy soon to adjust my meds. Something's not right. She's concerned about the excessive sleeping and general lethargy I've sunk into over the past few months. Me too. I was struck by how tired I was over the holidays, and it only seems to have gotten worse in the last few weeks. Every night I come home and can't do much more than play FreeCell and then stumble to bed. Blah yadda zzzz. I'm sorry I'm so meh. (I just felt like saying that. Maybe I'm actually apologizing to myself.)

I need interaction. And I want something more or less mindless to do tomorrow in the spaces between work. So I'll do that meme--ask me for my top-five list on any topic, and I'll come up with something more or less relevant.

"Good night," she mumbled, crawling under the covers.
Sarapanisdead on January 17th, 2006 05:04 am (UTC)
Top five (of the moment) favorite icons. Yours or other folks'.
superheroes failing at oatmeal: elves like it!some_stars on January 17th, 2006 05:13 am (UTC)
I don't do these memes,because I can never think of anything on the spot, but, well, if *I* needed cheering...top five sex acts, with specifics (who's on top, positioning, time of day, mental state, particular body parts emphasized, etc.) you would choose if you could have five custom-made pieces of porn created for you? (I'm assuming fandom, but hey, go crazy. *g*)

also: maaaaaan I know how that feels, with the meh and the bleh and the freecell. hopefully readjusting the brain drugs will get you back to relative spryness soon!
MELODY GLOUCESTER PEGASUSjolielaide on January 17th, 2006 05:49 am (UTC)
I hope things get better when the meds get adjusted. I'm about to do a major change with mine and am nervous as all get-out.

Top 5...scenes in your own fic that you love, and return to over and over. Top 5 scenes in other people's fic that you love, and return to over and over.
nzlaura: _chokeanddie Mean Girls whatevs looknzlaura on January 17th, 2006 09:16 am (UTC)
Top five textures... (sounds preppy - I want to say things you like to feel, but that comes out kind of ambiguous!)
Dess: gunn bw close [by ebonbird]dessert_first on January 17th, 2006 12:43 pm (UTC)
You know, I'd dragged around for years, everyone around me aware something was wrong, but I wasn't really open to admitting how *much*, to what degree. So when a work counselor said she'd refer me to a psychiatrist because I needed medication, it was like a huge, mean slap in the face. I'm that bad? Seriously? And you can just tell?

So I did a bunch of research, and found alternative ways of dealing with the depression. Counselling, of course, but upping my protein intake (lots of tofu and beans and Keto Slim soy shakes) helped amazingly, because of the chemicals it helps the brain produce. Also excersise, for the endorphins, just like 15-30 minutes daily on a stationary bike. And a few other things, I think. I looked in the naturalliving LJ community's memories. Learning to speak about things instead of bottling them up is part of my process. Kinesiology and craneosacral work can help a lot. There's a bunch of stuff, really, that one can do in addition to medication, to help along, or to help ease off it, if it's appropriate. But I just wanted to say, I hear you.

Oh, and your fics? Are totally that funny.

What are five characters you've never written but would like to, and why?
Trepkos: Hold My Hand by Spikeskattrepkos on January 17th, 2006 02:56 pm (UTC)
Top 5 alternate or fictional realities you'd like to inhabit.
Top 5 characters that you identify with.
Herself_nycherself_nyc on January 17th, 2006 04:37 pm (UTC)
Top five all time articles of clothing in your life and why.

And please don't be too hard on yourself. Rainy winters are difficult. Some of us struggle harder than others to take care of ourselves under conditions like that. :: hugs you ::
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Anna S.: rodney-gupeliade on January 17th, 2006 09:41 pm (UTC)
Re: interaction, baby
Also, you are likely sleeping so much because you're having a torrid dream-affair with Rodney McKay.

But why can't I remember our afternoons of passionate delight at the Park-Hyatt Hotel?!