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16 December 2005 @ 05:35 pm
winter life, writing, and sga fandom  
I stayed home again, knocked out by tiredness. I'm traveling next week and didn't want to risk getting run down and sick on my only real vacation this year. But I'm finally starting to feel more rested, I dealt with some billing issues I'd been dragging ass on, and my car situation is not dire, it turns out--also, Seattle holiday bash tomorrow. All these are good things.

It's stupid how tired I am though. I'm not sure if it's the midwinter slump or something else. Meds definitely need adjusting. Note to self.

I appreciate all recent feedback. I know there are some new people reading here, so I should say that I'm not always good about answering feedback. But I love it. Every piece of feedback is like getting a tiny fuzzy kitten lobbed at me so that it hangs on my sweater with its sticky claws, mewling. A simile taken too far. I'm also not always this prolific either. I just came off a nonprolific streak actually.

This doesn't even feel prolific. It's great to be writing anything, but it's kind of lazy writing, where I unintentionally repeat words within the space of a few paragraphs, and use approximate word choices instead of the best, and take drastic narrative shortcuts--but more of an issue is not paying close enough attention to voices or pausing now and then to question the breezy character elements I'm writing. If I were patient and self-disciplined enough these days to let my cookies bake for a while before serving them, instead of feeding my guests raw cookie dough, I'd be rewatching eps and studying voice patterns, and researching Stargate pseudoscience, and boning up on canon timelines and backstories, and so on.

The way I'm writing these days is probably a combination of fannish ADD, feedback addiction, and a problematic need for instant gratification, all of which reflect my bigger real-life issues. But I'm not beating myself up over it really; and if I came across one of those rants where someone complains about how LiveJournal and speed-scribbling and crackfic are destroying good old-fashioned fandom, I'd be just as cheesed off as I usually get.

And, hey, just to round out my litany of mea culpas, I'm also behind on leaving feedback and making recs. There have been so many amazing stories coming out lately that I'd feel glutted if I weren't a hobbit, perfectly capable of devouring fiction all day. First breakfast, second breakfast, elevenses, lunch, tea...etc. I hope to eventually make up for these omissions in some way, even if I am usually ninety percent good intentions and ten percent follow-through on things like that.

Here's something I'm finding about SGA as a reading fandom: I'm enjoying slash, het, threesomes--including m/f/m threesomes, which I *never* read--and mpreg--and *gen* (what is more mind-boggling, the mpreg or the gen?). This all feels new and different. I don't remember having this experience in other fandoms. BtVS comes closest, but SGA has tipped me right over the edge into sluttishness. Rodney/Teyla makes me squee. I just read *Rodney/Elizabeth*, and want more.

(Um. Does anyone have recs for good Rodney/Elizabeth?)

That's all the fannish content I have. In other news, I had a complicated narrative dream last night about lesbian politics that played out like a jocks-versus-nerds movie, or some variation on "PCU", and resolved itself in a pitched battle of Gay Pride parades.

I also watched the movie remake of "Bewitched" the other day and actually liked it, but then again that was the day I had brain fatigue.

In closing, I'm sitting in a café with hot coffee after eating ginger cookies; the walls here are hung with fairy lights, like the tree behind me; rollicking Irish music is playing, and a visible fire is burning in their open hearth sandwich oven; it's bright and almost cozy as I sit here looking out over the Capitol Hill traffic. And there's free wireless. If only my feet weren't so damn cold, I'd stay here all day.
superheroes failing at oatmeal: jews! in! space!some_stars on December 17th, 2005 01:47 am (UTC)
omg, rodney/elizabeth, YES. I totally pinged on them HARD in that nebulous beginning period before Sheppard became at all interesting to me, and it was all "Eee! He calls her Elizabeth! They're COLLEAGUES!"
Doctor Sciencemecurtin on December 17th, 2005 01:49 am (UTC)
Here's one Weir/McKay, but it's pretty angsty. By which I mean *very* angsty.

I'm going to check this entry later, in the hopes that the knowledgeable have made some recs.
Anna S.: rodney-bweliade on December 17th, 2005 02:04 am (UTC)
That's the one I read! It's very angsty--it hovers just below my threshold for angst overdose, actually, but there's a sweetness in it that leavens it just that necessary bit to keep it from killing me. Intense story--it left me aching and wanting to look into the future and see some kind of happy ending for them.
rachewickedwords on December 17th, 2005 02:43 am (UTC)
Meira writes one of the best versions of Weir out there (i.e., a Weir I really like.) I end up reading and enjoying a lot of stuff in this fandom that I never expected to like, such as the story that you mentioned.
Sarapanisdead on December 17th, 2005 02:00 am (UTC)
Raw cookie dough sometimes, maybe, but one of the things I like best about your writing is that it feels like the bonds of reality simply don't apply to you. You can toss any crazy ingredient into the mix, and yet when you throw the batch against the wall it still sticks. It's fascinating.
ship_recs on December 17th, 2005 02:02 am (UTC)

Patience by mylittleredgirl
Anna S.: rodney-teylaeliade on December 17th, 2005 07:24 am (UTC)
Great rec--thank you! :)
Pet: Ronon braveapetslife on December 17th, 2005 02:02 am (UTC)
There's SGA mpreg? Seriously?

Anna S.: john pretty!eliade on December 17th, 2005 02:06 am (UTC)
Are you serious? You haven't read it?! Oh man. I was just reminded of it today and reread the stories--there's two actually, one not actual mpreg; the sequel is. You have to see them. Here's the post from today with links to the stories:

Pet: Ronon Petapetslife on December 17th, 2005 02:09 am (UTC)
Oh my god, i HAVE read those, they are FANTASTIC! HEE.

Some of the best mpreg I've ever read. Just...so damn good. even the mnot!preg is one of the best stories in the fandom, I think. Thank you for relinking me, I'd forgotten where they were!
Anna S.: atlantis-sunseteliade on December 17th, 2005 02:15 am (UTC)
Oh, good, you have read them. Hee. *g* This whole post is being swallowed up by our conversation, isn't it. Yay! *squishes you close*
Anna S.: rodney-happy-smileeliade on December 17th, 2005 02:06 am (UTC)
Oh, but--um, don't be scared off by the image. *g*
Petapetslife on December 17th, 2005 02:10 am (UTC)
OMG. That picture is...it's really really frightening. Whoa.
Anna S.: atlantis-blue-skyeliade on December 17th, 2005 02:14 am (UTC)
Crap. *g* I tried to get you in time to make a detour around it. Not that it's not hilarious. But definitely traumatizing. And I realized too late that you should probably read the stories first. Er, yes.
Pet: Rononapetslife on December 17th, 2005 02:17 am (UTC)
very funny. and highly traumatizing. O.O

I lovelove and adore mpreg stories where it's somehow plausible, yet there's still that aspect of OMGWTF?? to it. Like, I hate it when male pregnancy is, like, normal. Or common. I like it to still be UTTERLY INSANE, yet, somehow within the story? Logical.


These stories fill that to a T.
cetpar on December 18th, 2005 03:13 am (UTC)
Maybe this will help ease the trauma :) It's a very cute drawing based on the stories.
And if you haven't seen the rest of her SGA drawings, you should check them out when you have a chance. Very, very cute.
Anna S.eliade on December 17th, 2005 02:07 am (UTC)
Actually, you know what--don't look at the image yet. Go read the stories first:

1. http://glitterati.illuminatedtext.com/fiction/hhhb!.html

2. http://glitterati.illuminatedtext.com/fiction/hhhisb!.html
wyoluvrwyoluvr on December 17th, 2005 02:38 am (UTC)
okay, not exactly mpreg, but whatever.


i can't believe it's not mpreg!

http://glitterati.illuminatedtext.com/fiction/hhhb!.html (there's a sequel)
Cesperanzacesperanza on December 17th, 2005 02:44 am (UTC)
If I were patient and self-disciplined enough these days to let my cookies bake for a while before serving them, instead of feeding my guests raw cookie dough,

FWIW, which is in fact, nothing, I believe in the absolute opposite approach: write the story you can write today; write the story you can write when you can write it; tomorrow's story will be better, but you'll never get to it except through today's story, and today's story is yesterday's terrific "tomorrow" story. Uh--I believe in writing as much as you can when you can, is what I'm saying, and this nattering about how well baked your cookies are--honey, eat it out of the TUBE if it works for you.

2 cents Ces
Anna S.: dino-life-decisionseliade on December 17th, 2005 04:29 am (UTC)
Actually my ideal would be a situation where I wrote both kinds on a regular basis--wrote little off-the-cuff stuff to mix it up while working on longer stuff to keep craftmanship up.

Of course, if off-the-cuff is your predominant style, you manage it beautifully. Beeyotch. *g*
Cesperanzacesperanza on December 17th, 2005 06:41 am (UTC)
Well, right: it's not so much "off the cuff" OR "craftsmanship"--rather, it's write the story you can write. Sometimes that's something large and architectural. Sometimes that's a 2000 word flashfic. Sometimes that's one fandom, or another: serious or not, comedy or not. It wasn't meant to be an either or: what I'm saying is: don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good.
Anna S.: foraminiferaeliade on December 17th, 2005 06:45 am (UTC)
don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good.

Oh, I like that. You are quotable. :)

What are you doing up so late, anyway? *kiss*
Cesperanzacesperanza on December 17th, 2005 03:48 pm (UTC)
Not me! Aristotle, I think!
Duffy: booksaresexy by barkeepduffy_99 on December 17th, 2005 05:36 am (UTC)
I'm one of the new people reading here, and I'm lobbing kittens at you as fast as I can!
Anna S.: kitteneliade on December 17th, 2005 07:25 am (UTC)
The Calico one is so cute! :D
Lydia Bell: rodneylydiabell on December 17th, 2005 09:45 am (UTC)
This is my favorite Rodney/Elizabeth:

Once Upon a Time in Moscow
Anna S.eliade on December 18th, 2005 07:52 pm (UTC)
Oh that's just *wonderful*--thank you for reccing it. I've made a note to myself to leave the author feedback. And I think I'm going to have to make a post sometime soon just for Elizabeth/Rodney recs. :)