spike21, who's apparently been holding me hostage until I posted, though this doesn't seem to have the benefit of keeping me out of my office cubicle. Hmph. Where's the fun in being a hostage if I have to work too? Anyway, as I started to outline these I realized with dawning horror the vastness of my inner fantasy life, and quailed and gave up. Besides, the themes are the same as always. I'm entirely predictable. Slavery, hurt/comfort, rape, muteness, gender switching. Even if I end up writing other stuff, that's what plays in my head. I have had increasingly detailed dialogue accompanying these storylines over the past few weeks. That's usually a precursor to writing even if it takes months for the impulse realize itself, but I don't feel up to writing SGA. It's daunting. Then again I said that about Buffy, and maybe SG1 too. I always say, "It's fine for other authors, it's just not for me, because the canon is challenging and I'd have to do research and stuff, wah wah, etc." The science intimidates me. I'm constantly amazed in this fandom by the authors who conscientiously tackle the heavy physics and math required to write toward a convincing McKay--and sometimes even Sheppard--and usually end up outstripping canon. I get intimidated when I approach a fandom and all the smart authors are playing cutthroat water-polo in the deep end of the pool. I turn into a wallflower.
Anyway, I'd really like to get back to writing Jack/Vaughn. If I weren't such a wrung-out dishrag right now, I'd do that, but nothing feels doable.
Annnnyway. Lunch.