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24 August 2005 @ 03:47 pm
variation on a theme  

The thesaurus offers lots of synonyms for "hard"--toilsome, tough, challenging--so maybe I can introduce some variety in my cut-tag lines. Because god knows these posts need some novelty, and the content itself is always the same. I'm bored, I'm going out of my mind, can't focus, can't think. Wah wah wah.

Is there anything more banal and inexcusable than sitting in a cubicle and whining about how you can't make yourself work?

I hate feeling like this. It's different from depression but just as useless.

Just now, for several moments, I stopped typing and stared at my monitor, and literally twiddled my thumbs. When I try to hone my attention to some task, my brain gets up and wanders off. Or slithers off, humping itself across the ground, dragging its brain-stem behind it.

This post is just a way to fill eight minutes and display a new icon.
Fandom: karass or granfalloon. Discuss.sherrold on August 24th, 2005 10:52 pm (UTC)
well, at least *I'm* home!
You could, if you wanted to, stop by right after work, and pick up your Vividcon DVDs -- I'll be home until 7pm...

I'm at skip=million right now, so if you've posted news I should know, tell me, eh? Con was fab, but I never slept, and now I'm so zonked I can barely keep my eyes open.
Anna S.: jp3eliade on August 25th, 2005 04:53 am (UTC)
Re: well, at least *I'm* home!
Ah, sweetie! I'm sorry--I saw your comment and then forgot all about it in the anxiety of trying to do a smidge of work. :P But I am glad you're back & look forward to seeing you on Saturday.

bibliokatbibliokat on August 24th, 2005 11:11 pm (UTC)
And what a pretty icon it is!
Anna S.: john-collareliade on August 25th, 2005 04:53 am (UTC)
Isn't he yummy? And when you look at pictures of him from other shows, and old promo shots, he looks so different. Still incredibly gorgeous, but different.
bibliokatbibliokat on August 25th, 2005 07:33 pm (UTC)
*scurries off to find other pictures*
bibliokatbibliokat on August 25th, 2005 07:36 pm (UTC)
Oooooo, different, but still pretty. I rather like his facial hair and dreds/dreads? look the best. Very yummy!
auroramama on August 24th, 2005 11:59 pm (UTC)
When I've found myself having such trouble working that I'm actually twiddling my thumbs and my brain keeps slithering away from me, it's usually meant that I think I ought to work but I'm not actually capable of it. If you can't, you can't. Space out without guilt.
Anna S.: alessandroeliade on August 25th, 2005 01:10 am (UTC)
it's usually meant that I think I ought to work but I'm not actually capable of it. If you can't, you can't.

Yeah. That's exactly how I feel. Someday I want to describe the general feeling in some way that's more descriptive and clear.

I weighed the urgent need to maintain my job performance against possible health risks & took an Adderall just a few minutes ago. I'm sitting in my neighborhood cafe and now hope to get enough work done in the next few hours that my manager and I have something of substance to discuss in my weekly 1:1 tomorrow. I just can't deal with an hour meeting based on my current meager efforts. And if I lose this job, then where's the health insurance that's paying for my meds, you know?

I'm trying to justify taking the Adderall to myself, when that animal hypochondriac part of my sub-brain is squeaking, "YOU WILL HAVE A STROKE AND DIE DIE DIE OMG!" :P
Mintwitchmintwitch on August 25th, 2005 03:51 am (UTC)
I'm inappropriately amused that when you write Adderall, I see Underalls. Ha.
Anna S.: penguineliade on August 25th, 2005 04:52 am (UTC)
I totally support inappropriate humor. *g*

It's my fault anyway, for mentioning panty-liners twice in one week. I must make a note never to do that again....
Trepkos: Nerd by Bliss_vtrepkos on August 25th, 2005 01:02 pm (UTC)
I can't remember - have you tried taking any selenium?
(for depression).