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31 July 2005 @ 08:59 pm
fannishly emotional  
I have a new playlist at work of four songs, my SG-1 playlist: By Way of Sorrow (Cry Cry Cry), Never Die Young (Lori McKenna), In Your Eyes (Oysterband), and another one that annoyingly I can't think of right now. These are all associated with SG because of vids I've seen. "Never Die Young" is by barkley; "By Way of Sorrow" is by sherrold; and "In Your Eyes" is by Lynn. That last one is a rollicking song but when I remember the vid it still makes my chest tighten and breath catch--the most intense moments in the song match up with the vid's sharp prism of Jack and Daniel. The other two are folk songs and, lately, when I hear them, I think of what they say about Daniel and they tear my heart out.

I was googling just now to remind myself of the song artists, and one hit was for an entry in my old blog, where I said:
By Way of Sorrow (Stargate) by Sandy -- Sniff. Well, I feel very proprietary about this vid. Gave Sandy the song, and saw it in progress, and feel very loved for the fact that she made this. And it's just so goddamn wonderful and beautiful and right. I think no matter what other vids I ever see, this will be the definitive Daniel vid for me, just like Lynn's vid is the definitive Spike vid. [Motorcycle Drive-by] It captures the essential, underlying grief of his character, and his personal arc--his slow trajectory away from that grief, toward exploration and healing, and the hope of joy. Yeah.

I've also been winding myself up for several days now with bedtime stories of hurt and comfort, Rodney and John, where I make myself cry from the angst and love.

And tonight, Intersections by kaneko made me thrum like a struck guitar string with anguish and happiness. I can barely even form sentences about it because it just breaks my heart--John. I mean, I can hardly stand it I ache for him so much.

But the kicker to all this soul weather is that I've been listening to the stunning "Northwest Passage" by Stan Rogers, which has always been a Due South song--and in my mind now it's also taking on form as a Stargate Atlantis song:
Ah, for just one time I would take the Northwest Passage
To find the hand of Franklin reaching for the Beaufort Sea;
Tracing one warm line through a land so wild and savage
And make a Northwest Passage to the sea.

Westward from the Davis Strait 'tis there 'twas said to lie
The sea route to the Orient for which so many died;
Seeking gold and glory, leaving weathered, broken bones
And a long-forgotten lonely cairn of stones.


Three centuries thereafter, I take passage overland
In the footsteps of brave Kelso, where his "sea of flowers" began
Watching cities rise before me, then behind me sink again
This tardiest explorer, driving hard across the plain.


And through the night, behind the wheel, the mileage clicking west
I think upon Mackenzie, David Thompson and the rest
Who cracked the mountain ramparts and did show a path for me
To race the roaring Fraser to the sea.


How then am I so different from the first men through this way?
Like them, I left a settled life, I threw it all away.
To seek a Northwest Passage at the call of many men
To find there but the road back home again.


Just. God. The words are beautiful, but it's impossible to know just how beautiful the song is without hearing it. It will give you chills. I'll post the file to this tomorrow, along with other songs people wanted. And if anyone can and wants to link to available vids in comments, feel free.

Anyway, I'm not really saying anything with all this except that that fan = fanatic = fanaticus, pertaining to a temple, inspired by a divinity, frantic.

Let's not even mention the thirtysomething libido surge, okay? I think I could explode small suns.
Halrloprillalar: canadaprillalar on August 1st, 2005 04:17 am (UTC)
Northwest Passage is our national anthem.

Well, it should be.
Anna S.: jeff-goldblumeliade on August 1st, 2005 04:46 am (UTC)
In a mental story I had the other day, there was karaoke night at Atlantis, but at the end of the evening, a group of guys who'd been secretly practicing as a quartet got up and sang the song a capella, and everyone was bowled over in silence, and Rodney sat there with his mouth gaping and his eyes tearing up, and at the end of the song he got up and clapped wildly. *g*
a little specificitysinensiss on August 1st, 2005 06:06 am (UTC)
now I'm tearing up myself at that image of Rodney.

I just reread Intersections tonight myself; it is so brilliant it leaves me speechless.
This Space Intentionally Left Blankbarkley on August 1st, 2005 04:18 am (UTC)
I can't wait to hear North West Passage. I just searched my iTunes to see if I had it and didn't know it, and now I'm listening to Life in a Northern Town by Dream Academy which I suspect is not in the same vein. *g*

Anyway, Never Die Young is here:

Anna S.eliade on August 1st, 2005 04:24 am (UTC)
That's so weird--I accidentally made four identical posts and this was one I deleted, and yet it's letting me reply. *worries*

You should post your comment/link on the most recent one too. :>)
Anna S.eliade on August 1st, 2005 04:25 am (UTC)
Oh wait, never mind--now it's on the right post. I have confused myself, but I prefer to think that LJ is responsible.
Anna S.eliade on August 1st, 2005 04:47 am (UTC)
Hey, malnpudl just generously posted a yousendit of the song in her comment.
This Space Intentionally Left Blank: Rodneybarkley on August 1st, 2005 04:28 pm (UTC)
Re: http://www.livejournal.com/allpics.bml?user=eliade
Coolness! I got it in time to put it on my iPod for work. Now I'm reading your above comment about the quartet on Atlantis and I'm cheered greatly.
Jane Bluestockingj_bluestocking on August 1st, 2005 04:25 am (UTC)
Wasn't there a video at Escapade one year -- a Sentinal video, where (I think) you never saw Blair -- that used By Way Of Sorrow? I have this vague memory, but I'm not sure and I don't know where I left my Escapade tapes.
Anna S.eliade on August 1st, 2005 04:27 am (UTC)
I think you're thinking of "Possession"--it's brilliant. Actually, in the link to my blog that I gave above (well, in the blog post itself), I have a long comment on it. :)
Mal: atlantis gate by cgwritingmalnpudl on August 1st, 2005 04:40 am (UTC)
I first heard Northwest Passage when I saw Call of the Wild and it was a long time before I could listen to it without crying. The best sort of tears.

I never thought of it in relation to SGA. That's wonderful, and gives it even more resonance for me. Thanks for that.

If it's not too presumptuous of me to offer: Northwest Passage (YSI link) and, in case the first one expires, a second link.
Anna S.: byzantiumeliade on August 1st, 2005 04:44 am (UTC)
If it's not too presumptuous of me to offer: Northwest Passage (YSI link) and, in case the first one expires, a second link.

I think that's wonderful! Now people can listen to it tonight! :D

bibliokatbibliokat on August 11th, 2005 04:00 am (UTC)
I'm a sad, sad, very behind on my friendslist LJ-er, so I missed the link to this song. I'd really love to hear it, so this is me asking if you could possibly send me the link or repost it. Please?
Mal: due south by peter_neverlandmalnpudl on August 11th, 2005 04:12 am (UTC)
bibliokat: geeky by vanity_madebibliokat on August 11th, 2005 04:31 am (UTC)
You're awesome. Thank you!
Malkin Greymalkingrey on August 1st, 2005 04:59 am (UTC)
I count it as one of the blessings of my life that I got to hear Stan Rogers live in concert twice while I was going to grad school in Philadelphia. "Northwest Passage" is good, but my big-time inspirational Stan Rogers song has always been "The Mary Ellen Carter."

She went down last October in a pouring driving rain.
The skipper, he'd been drinking and the Mate, he felt no pain.
Too close to Three Mile Rock, and she was dealt her mortal blow,
And the Mary Ellen Carter settled low.
There were five of us aboard her when she finally was awash.
We'd worked like hell to save her, all heedless of the cost.
And the groan she gave as she went down, it caused us to proclaim
That the Mary Ellen Carter would rise again.

Well, the owners wrote her off; not a nickel would they spend.
She gave twenty years of service, boys, then met her sorry end.
But insurance paid the loss to them, they let her rest below.
Then they laughed at us and said we had to go.
But we talked of her all winter, some days around the clock,
For she's worth a quarter million, afloat and at the dock.
And with every jar that hit the bar, we swore we would remain
And make the Mary Ellen Carter rise again.

Rise again, rise again, that her name not be lost
To the knowledge of men.
Those who loved her best and were with her till the end
Will make the Mary Ellen Carter rise again.

All spring, now, we've been with her on a barge lent by a friend.
Three dives a day in hard hat suit and twice I've had the bends.
Thank God it's only sixty feet and the currents here are slow
Or I'd never have the strength to go below.
But we've patched her rents, stopped her vents, dogged hatch and
porthole down.
Put cables to her, 'fore and aft and birded her around.
Tomorrow, noon, we hit the air and then take up the strain.
And watch the Mary Ellen Carter Rise Again.

For we couldn't leave her there, you see, to crumble into scale.
She'd saved our lives so many times, living through the gale
And the laughing, drunken rats who left her to a sorry grave
They won't be laughing in another day. . .
And you, to whom adversity has dealt the final blow
With smiling bastards lying to you everywhere you go
Turn to, and put out all your strength of arm and heart and brain
And like the Mary Ellen Carter, rise again.

Rise again, rise again - though your heart it be broken
And life about to end
No matter what you've lost, be it a home, a love, a friend.
Like the Mary Ellen Carter, rise again.
Anna S.: jack-davenport2eliade on August 1st, 2005 05:23 am (UTC)
Ohhhh--that sounds wonderful. I'll have to find a copy of it when I can. I only have one CD of his and it's not on there. (I think I paid like $25 to get it sent from Canada, just for that one song--Northwest Passage, I mean. *g*)
taverymate on August 1st, 2005 08:24 am (UTC)
Last week's theme at Audiography was O Canada, and there were a host of great Canadian artists represented. Only a couple of Stan Rogers' songs, unfortunately. But you can find The Mary Ellen Carter here, along with a few other Rogers songs:

It's a YSI link, posted on the 27th, so it will expire soon, if it hasn't already reached the 25 download limit.
(Anonymous) on August 1st, 2005 01:30 pm (UTC)
If that yousendit link's expired, I've put up another one here:


because more Stan Rogers is always a good thing.
Malkin Greymalkingrey on August 1st, 2005 01:32 pm (UTC)
Ooops. That was me, with the yousendit link. Forgot to log in.
Trepkos: Bench by Deadwillwalktrepkos on August 1st, 2005 04:30 pm (UTC)
"Lynn's vid is the definitive Spike vid. [Motorcycle Drive-by]"

Oooh, do you know where I can find this?

"the thirtysomething libido surge"

The forty-something one is worse...
Sarapanisdead on August 1st, 2005 04:34 pm (UTC)
The forty-something one is worse...

Oh, please tell me you're kidding. I've got the twenty-eight-something surge going on right now, and I'm dying. It's so all-consuming it's not even fun.
Trepkos: Awkward Silence by Deadwillwalktrepkos on August 1st, 2005 04:52 pm (UTC)
Well, I only discovered slash fanfics 2 years ago - thanks to the esteemed owner of this journal... I think that's got something to do with it.
Sara: liviaspaceshippanisdead on August 1st, 2005 04:32 pm (UTC)
There was a meme going around recently: Six Songs That Mean a Lot to You or some such, and I started the post and then just couldn't do it, because "Northwest Passage" is one of them. I love that song so much I can't talk about it.
grime and livestock: Daniel Happy Ending - Diernecofax7 on August 5th, 2005 12:30 am (UTC)
I just came across this post and wanted to thank you for the links and the music.

I'm glad I'm not the only one who compiles fannish cd mixes, and has the same associations with songs from vids.

(Anonymous) on September 14th, 2005 07:03 pm (UTC)
Late comment. I found this entry through Google Blog search. There is an audio clip of the opening verse of NWP on the official Stan Rogers Web site at http://www.stanrogers.net/index.html. Enjoy. The web site is hosted by Fogarty's Cove Music - the independent label founded by Stan Rogers.