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06 May 2005 @ 10:17 pm
SG watching  
I saw "Prometheus Unbound" (SG1) tonight, which I hadn't seen before. I couldn't stop giggling all the way through it. Deeply fun. Then I watched "Underground" (SGA) in my quest to see more of the show. I really liked it. It was the ep that introduced the Genii, which was timely, given what I've just been reading.

It's probably hormones but I'm getting odd bittersweet feelings watching both shows. I think it has to do with being out of step with the rest of fandom--watching things that have already aired and been enjoyed and explored by so many other people, and knowing I can never travel back in time and restart at the beginning in real time. That usually doesn't bother me. I think I'm just having some kind of fannish midlife crisis. Tying closely into this is how I've been reading other people's amazing, intelligently written stories while at the same time feeling like an urn full of dry ashes, creatively speaking. I mean, even the unwritten stories playing out in my head are trite and simplistic. I feel dull.

Mood: vaguely self-pitying and whiny, apparently.

I'm on antibiotics for what turned out to be a sinus infection. You know how when you've got a cold and you blow your nose a billion times until you're buried in snotty wadded kleenex like Kirk embedded in a pile of tribbles? It feels as if all that wadded kleenex is actually shoved up into my sinuses.

I'm suddenly having a weird deja vu that combines having a spring cold with being terribly behind at work with being fannishly out of sorts. And I'm listening to "By Way of Sorrow" by Cry Cry Cry, which is reminding me of the wonderful Daniel Jackson vid that sherrold_ish made. More weltschmertz.

However, I am not drinking, I'm still employed at the moment, and there are many lovely people in the world. So now I'm just going to wave sappily at you all. *wave*
Poshykittyposhcat on May 7th, 2005 05:54 am (UTC)
>>However, I am not drinking, I'm still employed at the moment, and there are many lovely people in the world. So now I'm just going to wave sappily at you all. *wave*

Then it's all good. And you're one of the lovely people in the world, so bonus! ::waves shyly::
all right, so you're nonchalant: s is for sleepwalkerrunpunkrun on May 7th, 2005 06:04 am (UTC)
*waves back*
Destina: peacedestina on May 7th, 2005 06:12 am (UTC)
*gives you sappy sentimental SG-flavored kisses*

I'm either at the start of a fannish midlife crisis, or at the end of one. It's so hard to tell, sometimes. *g*
Jane Bluestockingj_bluestocking on May 7th, 2005 06:33 am (UTC)
Feeling a bit odd myself, as if I'm on the floating bridge of dreams and might go anywhere. This is probably an illusion. Probably.

I'm sorry about your sinuses. *Seeks entertaining distractions* Have you watched the Kill Bill movies? I found them moderately entertaining. But you've probably seen them already; I'm far behind the normal curve when it comes to movies.
Trepkos: Cool by Becky Bootrepkos on May 7th, 2005 10:17 am (UTC)
*waves back*
Go you with the not drinking.
Not surprising you feel dull - you're sick!
And not in a good way!
Give yourself a break!
your royal pie-nessentrenous88 on May 7th, 2005 10:26 am (UTC)
**waves back** Sort of a fandom melancholy, sounds like. I think you should feel free to play some Edith Piaf, drink expensive coffee, and ponder.

But then go outside and take a walk, because the air will be good for your sinuses, and you might feel a little more cheerful, and you'll realize you'll get caught up with work soon and write even a snippet that you like pretty well in the next few days.

**waves more**
Sylvikefishsanwitt on May 7th, 2005 01:48 pm (UTC)
Take care of yourself :) ::waves back::