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29 January 2005 @ 02:09 pm
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It's one of those restless days. I sometimes think I have low-grade ADD. It's not the obvious hyper kind, it's just this inability to focus on anything for more than three minutes at a time. It frustrates me. I wasn't always like this.

I'm ostensibly writing, and words are happening, but I keep getting up to wander around aimlessly, flick on the TV, flick it off again, think about eating chocolate, try not to think about my shortcomings, consider leaving the apartment, return to my desk to type some more. I hate this--what is it, ontological blankness? I feel nervous and dull, though not depressed per se. My head is filled with sighs.
 
 
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sheilamimesere on January 29th, 2005 10:21 pm (UTC)
*cuddle* I hate that feeling. It is all oogy-making and no fun.

I suggest eating the chocolate.
dryad_duinath on January 29th, 2005 10:30 pm (UTC)
wow. you just described how I feel most days.

I am very sorry that you suffer this way. 'tis indeed horrible.
Estepheiaestepheia on January 29th, 2005 11:39 pm (UTC)
Boy, do I know that feeling. For days I've been trying to write more "Lucky" - and I do, I tweak here, write a paragraph there, then click on some link, then allow hubby to distract me, gobble down a packet of chips, look at what I've written, read an email, look at what I've written, change a word or two, do something else...

There are several fics I should read (and wanted to read for a long time), but somehow I can't bring myself to click on the links. I'm not sure if I am afraid to let myself get pulled into the stories, or what it is. I bought a new book on novel writing, but I feel to restless to read.

It*s driving me apeshit because it makes me feel intensely unaccomplished. Bah. I want this feeling to go away. And my St. John's Wort isn't helping. I ordered a sunlight simulator lamp, maybe that will help.

I hope you feel less restless soon. *hug*
rubywisp: willow/tara love by snowpuppiesrubywisp on January 30th, 2005 01:43 am (UTC)
I hate that feeling.

::squishes you till you squeak, then smooches you and feeds you chocolate till you purr::
inappropriately bibliophilicraucousraven on January 30th, 2005 06:22 am (UTC)
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Well. That was an eerily apt description of the Captain Avoidance episode which comprised my entire yesterd... Heeeeeeey.

Must have been something in the water. *peers suspiciously at ostensibly decaf tea* In the meantime, I found bunnies. They are certainly an asset in maintaining my captaincy, but highly detrimental to any actual productivity. I find this strangely undisturbing.

"Moooommm, I think I broke my motivation!"