August 30th, 2004


I'm a wage slave--ask me how!

I'm back at work today. It feels like I've been here forever. However, it's only 11:31.

If I could make the same amount of money as I do here, I think I'd almost rather...I don't know. Fold clothes and manage a women's changing room and vacuum floors.

Except not. Basically, though, I've come to realize that I don't love my job as much as I've always said. I wish I could find fulfillment and happiness here for 8 hours a day; it's hard to readjust to the idea that pleasure is something available to me pretty much only in my off-hours.

My goals at this moment:

  • I want to do a good, competent job, and not slack.
  • I want to maintain a level, elevated mood throughout the day.
  • I want to maintain composure, and possibly to care a little less about work things. Or at least the small things.
  • I still want to feel energized enough at the end of the day to do the things I want to do.

    I should mention that I'm probably not going to be writing fan-fiction for a while. I want to work on something original, something publishable; I'm putting Noir on indefinite hiatus, and I won't be planning to write any further of the Sidelines series. I understand if you're just here for the fan-fiction--feel free to defriend if you like. No sweat.

    If anyone has any thoughts or experienced advice on how to make it through the work day--and days ahead--that'd be helpful. I mean, I'll no doubt get back into the rut swing of things, but maybe I need some new ideas.