July 28th, 2003


bored now.

Just in case you're having trouble identifying people you need to defriend and snub, let me note that:

* I am a skeezy rapist who likes RPF
* I am one of those incomprehensible freaks who likes slash
* I am one of those creepy people who holds a redemptionist view of Spike
* I like Spuffy
* I intend to talk about all the AtS characters next season
* I brood about myself in my LJ
* I am 78% boring
* I am 79% bored
* I begin a lot of sentences with "I"
* I am writing very slowly at the moment, and posting very little
* I am going to bite your head

Clearly I'm an amalgam of all the worst qualities in fandom, and anyone reading this needs to let go of their precarious attachment to my LJ and move on.

Splitters! Splitters!

fandom makes me sad today.

Fandom shouldn't make me sad. There's something very wrong in LJ-Land lately. And I have a fairly modest, conservatively tailored friends list, comparatively speaking, so I think it's everywhere. It's pervasive, it's permeating everything. I know some people who are still very much dedicated to mailing list culture who have a lot of criticisms to make about LJs, and I've always rejoined by pointing out all the cool and positive things about LJ culture. It is a hotbed sometimes. But so are lists, and I think it's usually harder to tailor list memberships and subject matter to suit yourself.

I don't get how, with all the coolness of the cool people I rub shoulders with in LJ--like all the sweet peaches who replied to my last post--the carnival as a whole so often fails to amuse me, fails to add up to more than the sum of its parts. I'm all negative and shit, I guess. And maybe not putting in enough to get back what I need. In contrast, as an example, I think anniesj is the most brilliant example of the laws of social reciprocity that I've ever seen--she reaps what she sows, and it's all good. If I had more energy she'd be my role model.

Meanwhile, on my TV, the mad scientist is confiding conversationally to a severed head. I think I'll focus on that for a while.