May 25th, 2003


buffy wish list redux

I invent my own meme. The first Buffy wish list meme was what you'd like to see happen to the characters now that the show has ended. But this is five things I would have liked to see on BtVS before it ended. Not so much what I'd have done differently, because I think that's another idea entirely--though #4 and #5 sort of lean in that direction.

1. A body-switching episode, either just two of the characters, or "musical chairs" like in that great Farscape ep, "Out of Their Minds."

2. Another AU ep like the Wishverse, set in any season--S5, 6, 7. Buffy is "visiting" the other universe like Cordy did, but with more conscious awareness; Spike and Xander are together there; and Buffy takes back info that helps with the big bad arc (e.g., like finding out some useful info about Glory). I like the idea of S/X being done very casually, as a matter-of-fact sidenote that would nonetheless establish the potential for it, if circumstances were different.

It would also have been cool to see an AU set in S6 or S7 where we "reset" the universe and all traces of Dawn are removed; like, what would have happened to the kids if she'd actually never been there.

3. An S7 ep that works in a bonding/buddy plot for Spike and Xander, where Spike helps Xander somehow, either through some act of bravery, or in a more personal way, and Xander actively sheds a lot of his issues with Spike, in the same way that Buffy does--while remaining true to the character's issues and vamp hatred, of course.

4. Any ep after S4 where we see a hint of Giles's personal life, the ramifications of his choices, etc. An ep set in England where we see Giles and maybe Willow working with the watchers--like, it would have been cool if, instead of those few scenes in the country in "Lessons," we'd been shown Giles and Will at the council headquarters, and given signs that they'd established personal relationships with some of the watchers. It would have made the destruction of the council later on more shocking and poignant.

5. An ep or two where the entire gang gets sucked into a portal and has a Pylea-like mission to get home, with swords & sorcery & such. (Have Willow reference Pylea, because she's been corresponding with the A.I. gang. That helps reduce the rip-off factor, gives some great tie-in, etc.) Set it in S6, have Riley come along, and you could rework an entire section of the season, probably between "Gone" and "As You Were."

relativity and rage

This morning I dreamed for what felt like half an hour that I was in a supermarket: I'd paid for some barbecued potato chips, I went down to the parking garage to wait for them, and no one brought them. And I was in a RAGE. A savage, throat-ripping rage in which I cursed out the supermarket employees and could find no peace.

If you accept the relativity of things, and I usually do, then none of us is truly above the fray: one person's friend is another person's enemy; one person's hero is another person's villain; one person's cunty nemesis is another person's cool frood. Etc.

Which kind of sucks, because you can never really take the comfort of the moral high ground.

I suppose there are people of sterling character out there, people with an iron will who've nailed moral and ethical consistency. Except consistency becomes unattractive, so you need to have a dram of flexibility and grace as well. Maybe some rationality, selflessness. And then what are you? A saint, and annoying as fuck.

Which is all just a roundabout way of saying that this is one of those days when I hate myself. And other people. I'd like to be able to kill people I hate--I don't mean metaphorically--without a jot of empathy, and with the reassuring certainty that they're my prey. This must be why I admire vampires, right?

I have been reading Drinking: A Love Story and thinking about rage, but it doesn't help me with my own rage, which is huge and irrational.

I have been trying to cheer myself up with rabbits and cats, but it's not working so well.

I did have pancakes today, and that was pretty good.

I watched QAF with S. last night, and that was good.

But nothing makes me feel better on the deepest, most fucked level of selfhood.

I'm willing to give it another try if someone recs a good S/X story, though. Surely this lameass, cocksucking universe contains *one* more good S/X story I haven't read?


keanu says...

"The path to enlightenment is the middle way. It is the line between all opposite extremes."

See--not all television is bad for you. If you surf through five minutes of The Little Buddha you too can receive the balmy wisdom of the ages from an actor with an atrocious accent and a laughable beard.

I just liked it because it summed up my thoughts once again on the final BtVS season. (Sometimes I can actually sustain the belief for seconds at a time that it had some meaning.)

So, question. Most people on my friends list have Buffy-themed LJs...BtVSLJs? Some have SVLJs (hmm, I think I'm inventing acronyms), a few have HPLJs or DSLJs, and some queens are holding court in their LJs over a whole slutty rainbow of fandoms (::cough::TE::cough::), so: who are the people with QAFLJs? I mean, I could look it up as an interest group, but I'm sure it's huge and it won't necessarily tell me who is writing and talking about Queer as Folk non-stop and captivatingly.

Does anyone have LJ recs?

Edited to add: Comments now contain insane squees and spoilers for tonight's QAF.