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29 March 2011 @ 11:39 am
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I guess I plateaued on my meds; I've been feeling biochemically challenged the past several days. I have to believe that dysfunctional neurochemicals are at play, because otherwise I ascribe it all to defecits in character--I feel churlish and tacky for not expressing my thanks to people in more direct and verbal ways, and lazy for not writing in LJ, and a loser for not keeping up on my e-mail. But there are no tangible reasons for my "mood." Yesterday I just felt as if I weighed a thousand pounds, and my head felt full of heavy sand. That is depression: the feeling of being sandbagged.

I've been taking notes of things to write about and hope to get some more interesting words out soon.

My chief mental preoccupation right now is finding housing. I think I'd benefit from living in some organized, structured setting for a while, but it's all applications and waiting lists and so it worries me that I'll reach the end of my allotted time at the Crisis Respite Program at the shelter before I find something. (Here is where I chew my lip and stuff.)

I must post more soon; not all my observations center on me--since I last posted I've lost one roommate and gained another. There have been open beds in the women's dorm ever since I got there; meanwhile the men have double our number of beds and are at max capacity. Tensions and tempers remain pretty even so far considering the situation. Apparently they have an epic snorer.

I've been visiting gulls at the waterfront. Yesterday I wrote, "There's something about the beaky whine of gulls that reminds me of cats begging." The open mouths, the sheer energy of insistence. Feed me! They amuse me.
 
 
 
Kasskassrachel on March 29th, 2011 06:51 pm (UTC)
Sandbagged: yes. I know that feeling.

And beaky whine of gulls is a beautiful phrase.
Trepkostrepkos on March 29th, 2011 07:08 pm (UTC)
Gulls!
I love gulls. There are a lovely couple who nest on our roof each year. Here are their babies from last year: http://trepkos.livejournal.com/395463.html

And here is the flight training school we set up to get their offspring back on the roof. I stood in the lounge flapping my arms to give them the idea ...
http://trepkos.livejournal.com/283943.html#cutid1

My fingers are firmly crossed for you in your search for a home, and better health.
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eaceac on March 29th, 2011 11:47 pm (UTC)
Dysfunctional neurochemicals may be at play, but even if they aren't, you're certainly permitted a few off days...
eaceac on March 29th, 2011 11:52 pm (UTC)
(I mean, without deciding you have deficits in character)
tabaqui: atlanticwavetabaqui on March 29th, 2011 11:58 pm (UTC)
*waves back*
I've always liked gulls, however much of a nuisance they may be. They always just made me happy, to see them gliding, and to hear them.

How lovely you're near water. :)
Martha: Yellow dress Joy!saffronhouse on March 30th, 2011 01:05 am (UTC)
Hey--thank you so much for every post. Your words help knit my world together, which is no exaggeration, just my stumbling to let you know how important your writing is. I feel like one of those greedy gulls, myself.
in search of a clever byline10zlaine on March 31st, 2011 01:56 am (UTC)
*waves*
flaming museflaming_muse on April 1st, 2011 08:52 pm (UTC)
I'm thinking of you.
Martha Wells: SGA Hugmarthawells on April 1st, 2011 09:24 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
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(Anonymous) on April 8th, 2011 09:39 am (UTC)
NATO takes over command of military operations in Libya
[b]NATO is taking over command of military operations in Libya from coalition forces, world media reported Sunday.[/b]

The UN Security Council imposed the no-fly zone over Libya on March 17, along with ordering "all necessary measures" to protect civilians from Muammar Gaddafi's attacks on rebel-held towns.

The 28 NATO ambassadors met on Sunday to decide on further military plans in Libya.

The United States transfers command for a no-fly zone over Libya to NATO, while coalition forces will continue to protect civilian population from attacks by Gaddafi forces.

The military operation in Libya, codenamed Odyssey Dawn, has been conducted so far jointly by 13 states, including the United States, Britain and France.

NATO members decided on Thursday to assume responsibility for the enforcement of a no-fly zone in Libya, but could not agree on taking full command of all military operations in the country.

Meanwhile, leaders of the 27 European Union states on Thursday issued a statement saying the EU stood ready to assist in building a new Libya "in cooperation with the United Nations, the Arab League, the African Union and others."

MOSCOW, March 27 (RIA Novosti)

http://en.rian.ru/world/20110327/163235937.html
palicrux on April 9th, 2011 02:39 pm (UTC)
You made some good points there. I did a search on the topic and found most people will agree with your blog.